Cheeeesin

Let’s see, in about twenty minutes or so i’m gonna have to get ready to leave with Jasmine and head to Rancho for practice. But in the meanwhile I wanna say a couple things. First off, Friday was a great day, a really great day! Over the past two weeks i’ve been shitting bricks as nervously as possible to the thought of my results after getting checked at the clinic. And I admit, I actually have something to be afraid of; shit I know my history ain’t the cleanest. Anyways so Friday me and two friends are waiting in the lobby and then I get called in, FINALLY after 30 minutes and shit (the asian receptionist who looks like she’s around her twentys seriously had something against me, she ALWAYS LAGS when it comes to me.) Ok so they take me back to one of the rooms and have me sit down. She asks to clarify my last name, I guess just to assure i’m the correct person she’s giving results to. And trust me, I was literally shaking with anxiety to hear what was coming next. She flips some papers then, “Okay so after we finalized your urine and blood samples, you do not have any stds, and the HIV is non-active. Meaning negative.”

I was so relieved to hear what she said. I’m so thankful to actually be clean from any nastys I thought I might’ve caught these past 3 years. But now that that’s all over and done with, I’ve thought a lot about how I acted in the past, and whether you actually believe me or not i’ve made a lot of decisions that’ll better me from now on. Reflecting on my past, i’ve learned to be wiser with my choices and actions, but especially to value my own being above all. Oh shit my triflin aunt just walked in with Subway, gotta go